I was once a sleeping ocean and in a dream became jealous of a pond

I realized that i was a sleeping ocean, i knew that there was a greatness inside of me that needed to be let out. It screamed at me everyday and somehow I was numb from the constant noise it created in my head. It was my best friend and my worst enemy and it became my personal ambivalence. I didn't move for fear that I would wake something in me that i desperately wanted to come alive. I saw this greatness everywhere I went in everyone's eyes.....the barista, the customer, the waitress, my friends, my family, my teachers, my heroes, my lovers, the politicians, the president of the United States. I saw a reflection of the longing in my heart. I wanted to tell them I understood, I wanted to tell them there was no reason to hide. I wanted to tell them that together we could be great. I thought that if I could help them then I could help myself. But the moments passed, the days passed, months passed, years passed. It was all simply too much, too hard, too tiring. I didn't have the power to make a difference. I thought people always left and let you down. This was my old story.

We so often get caught up in what other people think that we forget what we ourselves think. How often are you timid with what you want to say to someone or don't take a stand for your ideas or even worse..feel bad about yourself because you don't live up to someone else's standards? These standards don't really exist except for in your mind or his mind or her mind. What are your standards for yourself? How great do you feel about what your going to say? How will your ideas effect the world? How freakin amazing does it feel to be proud of yourself no matter what anyone else thinks? How long will it take us to love ourselves?

Now I am awake. I get to create the life that I want. It is my responsibility to love myself and only then love others. It is my responsibility to keep asking questions and keep getting up when I get knocked down. It is my responsibility to use the power I have and face it every single day without fear or doubt. Every single soul has the power to change the world, all it takes is responsibility and belief. I have yet to change the world but I am stepping up and breaking down my boundaries. This is where my journey begins, where it ends is limitless. I believe that.

"She's got the power to be, the power to give, the power to see.....suddenly I see this is what I wanna be, suddenly I see why the hell it means so much to me." KT Tunstall