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Transcendence and Being

Can you think of a problem that has been troubling for you? Perhaps the harder question would be "Can you not think of a problem you have been struggling with?". But for now let's focus on the problem, shouldn't be too tough right? Good, now that you've got the problem let's see if we can play with your perspective. We are meaning making machines and most if not all of us are in a constant struggle to fix something or make sense of something that is happening in our lives. How can we achieve more? How can we love more? How can we do more? How can we have more? How can we be more?

Most of us go around under one mode of operation. A way that we deal, a way that gets us through, consciously or unconsciously, there is something driving us every single day in search of this more-ness. I had a huge revelation last week, it was that in my constant struggle to make things "more" or "better" I was making others feel like less or like they were not enough. What I did have was being demeaned. The question underneath all my "more questions" was really "Why am I not enough?" Whoa, I was blown away and I walked away with the hallucination that many of us operate this way. Can you relate? So, what to do now?

Think of the problem that came up for you earlier. My guess is that you are wanting more or for a situation to be better. There are two ways you can entertain this problem. You can be bigger than the problem, tuck it away, let it run it's course while your focus is on something more positive OR you can be with it, hold it close to your heart and wrestle with all it's ugliness. In other words, you can transcend the problem or simply be with the problem. My suggestion is to be dynamic, do both. For one day transcend the problem, the next make a commitment to honestly be with it. Or if your problem is larger go week by week, one week do everything you can to "get over" your problem, the next week do everything you can to "feed and love" your problem like you would a newborn child. Do each with the intention of healing. Will this confuse the heck out of you?? Maybe and it will probably confuse the heck out of the problem itself....all the better. Will you be in confusion?... maybe, but most likely clarity as well. We are dynamic beings, it is best to get out of our one mode and try on other ones as well. For some transcending will be easy and for other's being will be easy. I know that you will have many learnings through this process and somewhere between the opposite forces of transcending and being there will be a balance of resolution. I would love to hear your experiences....good luck!

I was once a sleeping ocean and in a dream became jealous of a pond

I realized that i was a sleeping ocean, i knew that there was a greatness inside of me that needed to be let out. It screamed at me everyday and somehow I was numb from the constant noise it created in my head. It was my best friend and my worst enemy and it became my personal ambivalence. I didn't move for fear that I would wake something in me that i desperately wanted to come alive. I saw this greatness everywhere I went in everyone's eyes.....the barista, the customer, the waitress, my friends, my family, my teachers, my heroes, my lovers, the politicians, the president of the United States. I saw a reflection of the longing in my heart. I wanted to tell them I understood, I wanted to tell them there was no reason to hide. I wanted to tell them that together we could be great. I thought that if I could help them then I could help myself. But the moments passed, the days passed, months passed, years passed. It was all simply too much, too hard, too tiring. I didn't have the power to make a difference. I thought people always left and let you down. This was my old story.

We so often get caught up in what other people think that we forget what we ourselves think. How often are you timid with what you want to say to someone or don't take a stand for your ideas or even worse..feel bad about yourself because you don't live up to someone else's standards? These standards don't really exist except for in your mind or his mind or her mind. What are your standards for yourself? How great do you feel about what your going to say? How will your ideas effect the world? How freakin amazing does it feel to be proud of yourself no matter what anyone else thinks? How long will it take us to love ourselves?

Now I am awake. I get to create the life that I want. It is my responsibility to love myself and only then love others. It is my responsibility to keep asking questions and keep getting up when I get knocked down. It is my responsibility to use the power I have and face it every single day without fear or doubt. Every single soul has the power to change the world, all it takes is responsibility and belief. I have yet to change the world but I am stepping up and breaking down my boundaries. This is where my journey begins, where it ends is limitless. I believe that.

"She's got the power to be, the power to give, the power to see.....suddenly I see this is what I wanna be, suddenly I see why the hell it means so much to me." KT Tunstall